what happened to our friendship?

i've been acting totally freaky and suicidal lately. i'm just not myself anymore. everything has been such a cloudy blur. i really hope that everything can go back to how it was. i hope i can like forget about everything in a flash, in a blink of an eye. i need to escape from the depressing hellhole i'm living in. i need to give myself a break from the harsh reality of this world.

i'm sick of this life
 i'm tired of this never ending battle
  why can't things go well? 
   why does everything have to fall apart? 

when everything seems to be going great
 when i've just started to enjoy my days
  of being with my best friends
   and just spending each second in their presence

i want things to go back to how it used to be
 i miss the days when my jokes were the centre of laughter
  i miss the days where nothing was with hatred and jealousy
   but the thing i miss the most is the care we had for each other

i can feel our friendship falling apart 
 where're all the hopes for our supposed-to-be forever friendship?
  and all the promises made when we first started our friendship?
   tell me, are they just false hopes and empty promises?

    has our friendship become vague?
     does our friendship still mean something to u?

no point AT ALL!

right. it's around 12:55 am now, and i still cant sleep. you know one thing about blogging in the middle of the night,,is that they're really addictive. and i mean REALLY. once u get ur hands on the keyboard you just cant stop typing. u know u shouldn't even try to connect to the server, coz u might get those dreadful dark rings round ur eyes. plus, its not healthy to stay out late. but u just cant stop. u have that irresistable urge to speak ur mind out. u know its not gonna be that great of a work, and lots of people (maybe) are gonna read what u wrote. but u know what, u just dont care. u just want to write and write...and tell the world what's up in ur mind. maybe its some way to catch attention, or maybe u just dont have anything good enough to do around the house. whatever ur reason is, one thing is for sure -well at least for me- that the blog is a drug.

seriously dude. i could like stay up all night and type and read all my blogs all over again just to check for mistakes, try to perfect all the stories and articles i've written. sometimes i would read other people's blogs to look up for new words or phrases, u know, to expand the small range of vocabulary of mine. just to improve the english language, learn the slangs. God, I'm so pathetic. there's no point in this story. it's not even a story. it's kind of like...a piece of useless writing. it is indeed.

well.. got to stop now. my eyes are aching badly. dammit. so im gonna leave it here for now. catch y'all later. oh yeah, if anyone agrees with me, leave ur comment. well.. practically i just like comments. and need it to fulfill my euphoria desire. urgh. sad, i know. whatever!  (@_@)